He asked and I said yes... after 7 years of friendship, months of dating long-distance, and countless prayers, Kyle & I are engaged. I am extremely excited about the idea of marrying this man God has brought into my life but I am also beyond terrified. To say I do not handle change well is quite possibly the understatement of the year. Blame it on my father, the engineer, or on my own OCD tendencies but either way, major life changes and I are much like fire and dynamite - you combine the two and you have an unstable disaster waiting to happen. I had just adjusted to life with a boyfriend and now I have a fiance, a wedding to plan, and a few short months to process the fact that I will be a wife. It is not that I will miss the days of being single or dating (goodness knows I am not good at either) I think it is more that I have to think, re-think, and then think some more before my mind and emotions align to accept this new role and relationship. Thankfully, my fiance is an incredible man that God has blessed with an abundance of patience. He takes each day and each stress out moment in stride and is a constant reminder to give all things to God - big and small. His constant encouragement to let go of my anxiety and stress over planning a wedding and inadequacies in being the kind of wife I feel he deserves has helped me to find my focus and direct it all towards Christ and His love for us rather than on myself. Without getting too mushy and giving Kyle a big head, I am blessed and lucky to be marrying such an incredible MAN.
I am starting this blog to hopefully process through life's happenings - good and bad - and so that I can look back when it is all said and done and hopefully laugh at myself and how ridiculous I actually am. There is no turning back now, so here we go...
